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the meteor comes crashing
destroying everything worth having
and just like that a town is gone
in a moment
its all my fault
and i know it

breathe in slow to stop the shaking
this has to happen the sky is breaking
cause its been a long september
i never have felt so scared
i wish that i could have you here
we could even talk about the weather
i know your watching i know your there
i just wish i could see you here
cause i'm scared to pull this trigger

I've got a line for every situation. and i know how they all will end. i don't know why i can't take the lead.  will i always just be an extra in your movie. heart break boy 3. on stage off. give your rehearsed lines. she'll act like she beleives it. we are all just actors.  and i'm guest starring in your movie.  it never was about me.  it'll never be about me.  i've got nothing but behind the scene footage.  no red carpet.  no money in my poket.  i'll just bid my time. this life is so surreal.  i think i need to wake up.  i think i need to live.  i'm going to steal a camera.  i'm going to sell my film.  self-righteous suicide.  what an unhealthy way to die.